Lucy Rosa Updates

September 2, 2007

This was posted on my brothers myspace and I wanted to share with all.

On Friday August 31,2007 I was with my mother who was under the care of Hospice at JFK Hospital in Lake Worth. I had gotten there early that day and had dinner in the room with my brother and sister. Throughout the day and evening I would hold and talk to my mother as she layed in bed helplessly unable to say a word or make any voluntary movement.

All that could be seen is teardrops continuously running down the side of her face. Her eyes wide open unable to focus at will and an expression of pain and sorrow on her face. At times i felt she was trying to communicate through her tears.

Throughout the night her facial expressions would change displaying various emotions. At 2:00am I leaned over one last time before retiring to my bed and started to tell her that I loved her and that everything will be allright and that she should let go and go with God. Then her eyes would look at me and start to tear profusely. While wiping her tears at one point my emotions took over and started to cry uncontrollably.

Then I looked at her and saw her face change. She no longer looked like the mom  I knew. I started to see her as an an angel. I kept looking at her and then I knew that she would be leaving us soon. The angel had come to prepare her for the journey. I believe she managed to convince the angel to wait till morning so she can spend one lastnight with all her kids in the room.

The doctor came into the room at 8:30am to look her over and started to tell my sister that she has one to two days left at best. At 9:am I didn't hear the loud breathing that she was making throughout the night and got up to check up on her. I found her alive, breathing quietly along with a teardrop on the corner of her right eye. I looked at her and wiped the tear drop but then went back into  bed. My sister got up approximate 2 minutes after and went to brush her teeth. Before brushing her teeth my sister told my brother who was sleeping on the recliner to go to bed since she was getting up. After a minute of thinking about it he decided to get up and laid down in bed next to me. As he started to lay down he looked over at mom and noticed that she had stopped breathing. She had fullfilled her last wish of spending one last night with all her children and took flight with her new wings.

September 1, 2007

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

At 9 AM mom took her final breath and quietly went on her journey to her place of rest.  It was a strange feeling, it was a feeling that for over a year I practiced and at this moment I did not know how to react.

 

 

I was a feeling that during this whole week we waited, my brother came from Ft Lauderdale the night before.  My mothers two brothers came and one sister along with a friend of hers of many years.

 

 

My daughter was there, so was my two cousins and a cousin of my mother.  We all were there keeping her company.  Finally they all started to go home, first 12:20AM, then 1AM finally at 2AM.

 

 

When she went on her journey we all confessed that we were very happy that it was just us.  The three of us, it was as she waited for our peace.

 

 

It was always all four of us, calling each other during the week or weekend for a family get together; somehow it was never complete when one of us did not show up.  It was always great to have all four of us eating at the same table, like when we were growing up.  I will always miss that.

 

 

I am grateful for the years that I did have, I am happy of the memories and the experiences shared.

 

I miss my mother, I cry when I remember little things just her calling me Ori now to me is a big event and hope to hear her say.  Even the nicknames of my brother and sister, Noi and Eli rings loudly in my head.

 

 

I am tired…