This was posted on my daughters blog of myspace on May 19, 2007 - I thought that it should also be here. I love you mama...
Well... it has finally come, the final moments I'm going to have with my grandma. I can't believe she's actually not available to me anymore. I can still hear her coming out of her room gettin ready to ask me to zip her dress so she can go out on a Friday night to bingo then to the Cuban American Club.. partying as much as I do...I miss her allot.
I have been pretty upset lately and it would have been nice to have her there to call to talk to her. I miss her food and her crazy stories that always made me laugh. I miss her shaken her ass to all those reggaeton songs... She always knew the latest gossip on the family... she was the center of my immediate family.
I can't believe how young she was and how could she go now... she still had ALOT of living to do... she has two great grandbabies that still need to meet her and see how she was... I would have LOVED for her to see my child when I had one... I know that she'll be looking down on me and protecting me but it's not the same... I can't even think about her and not tear up... how could these damn doctors do this to her... I bet they aren't even thinking about her... how could they forget?? how could anyone...
She was such a live person.. Her brain was like a book for numbers cuz she knew everyone's phone number, address, birthday, social security numbers, driver's license... she knew it all... I can remember hearing her call me a bitch.. and I used to laugh because she was so funny when she said it...
She was so strong why couldn’t she just fight and win this time... why she had to suffer in this way... I don’t want to let her go but it would be for selfish reasons and she wouldn't want to be where she is now...
I love you Mama Lucy... I will never ever forget you and I will never ever ever stop loving you... BENDISION... I love u... Please come visit me... I cant bear to know you're not here....
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